lazy

I know now why.

Dreams have eluded me.

Because you can't make something out of nothing.

I have forgotten how to be.

Slacker that I am, I managed to push myself to get out and finally mail that application. Yes, I am betraying my own words. Four years ago, I told myself I'd never want to leave my country. I'd never want to be anywhere else, because I am needed there. But look at where I am now. I'm not even thinking in my own language.

It's hard to admit it. But that's just how it is.

I have to stay here, jaded as I am, stuck in my job, though breathing still.